I left the house recently and drove my car to an appointment. I had a very close call on the freeway and thought to myself. I don’t know how I came out of that unscathed. I am quite sure that we all have those moments. Then it occurred to me…

Death, it makes you think crazy thoughts! Your tried and true orbits change. You get not just nudged into a different trajectory in life, you get shattered and shocked into wild and wacky new spins, twists and turns, and the changes are unimaginable. Shadows and ghosts become real. You question…

45 Forever, but Happy 49th Birthday My Love. Today is your birthday and it’s also #TBT — ThrowBack Thursday. I celebrate you today. Of course I miss you. The girls miss you. Here are some of the most beautiful photos of you, me and the kids as we all grew…

Two years ago, Michelle and I woke up and prepared the kids for school and me for work. And as we all know, life changed horribly. Michelle went to the doctor and came home dead. The shock and fury of this new reality has somewhat numbed in these two years…

Today it’s been a year since my wife, Michelle’s, death. It’s been a hard year for all of us in our own way. Here is a link to the video / photo montage of Michelle Boyer Dykstra throughout her life — https://drive.google.com/…/0B1FKhE9yy2Y5TFpScG54aXV5Y…/view… Below are my ramblings, thoughts and thank you’s…

Good Morning Dear Michelle — Love of my life — mother of our two girls — This is supposed to be your day. It still is. Very hard to escape that this is truly a bittersweet day. However, when we first met and knew we were getting married, you said…

St. Valentine’s Day in an Aspen Grove of Love. Grow, grow into my arms, little by little, letting go of your fears. Know yesterday is now only a bygone dream, and today walk with me arm in arm, down in the sand next to the river’s edge. Trickling waters. Tickling…

I knew I never really could have loved her, at least that’s what I thought when she told me, “you know this Cabriolet is so me.” But it did make me laugh at the mischief she could cause not even meaning to, or even crazier, not even knowing, and the…